Happy Product!

The following makeup product makes me giddy with excitement.

It's eyeliner, by the way. Ya, I took pics of eyeliner.

Sold at Kohl's, even Kohl's brand I think. The brand is called Flirt! (yes, with the exclamation point).


I love a good smoky eye...

or even a clean face with eyeliner.....

but have yet to find a cost effective one that works. Of course, I also suck at putting it on. The eyeliner is usually not smooth enough. I mean really, is there anything more frustrating then trying to give yourself a sexy eye, and the eyeliner crumples literally INTO your eyelash?! Or the makeup leaves my "line" too thick or too thin, and sometimes that's hard to repair.

BUT!

This $12 eyeliner is magically delicious.

The first 3 ingredients are completely natural. It also has vitamin E in it, which i'm sure is why it GLIDES on, but does not feel greasy or heavy. It's smooth, long lasting, not smudgy and comes in a plethora of colors with cute names. Basic black is called Tipoff, purple/midnight blue is called Licorice Delight, and so on.

I'm not the only one who has fallen in love with this Kohl's brand of makeup because every time I go to pick up an eyeliner they are sold out. EVERY. Time. You may have to go online, but it would be worth it.

End of 2010

I think i'm happy to be saying goodbye to this year. Its had major heartbreak-

-Death of Lito's Father
-My layoff
-Death of my Grandmother
-Marriage drama/crap
-Lito's babymama drama/crap
-Temporary cancellation of Fost/adoption AGAIN

We've been in marriage counseling and individual therapy for a couple weeks now. I am hopeful this will put us on the right path. It's amazing how you can not even notice that you are disrespecting your spouse, or not communicating enough. You go to work, give 110% to your job/coworkers, and then come home and give little to the one you made a vow to. Lines become drawn, we stack our cards and then shut down. Right now, we are working on reversing negative stuff like that. We are working on putting each others needs first, as a married couple. As our therapist said, "When you EACH wake up deciding that you are solely responsible for saving the marriage, how can either of you go wrong?"

........Oh. When he put it like that, as plain as simple as could be, I think a light went on for both of us and we realized we had not been doing so.

I hope 2011 brings good cheer.

~Nephew and I wishing you Happy New Year!~

Making it work.

We are a work in progress. Individual therapy AND marriage counseling. It's been a week and so far so good. I've put my dream of a child temporarily on hold. What's the point of trying to have a child with your husband when there are many...many ...issues between us? It seems, the closer we got to our homestudy, the more relationship/marriage crap started coming out.yayyy.

This blog is still my journey to my child. If it takes my entire life, I will.

Marriage is hard.

I just wanted to put that out there. It seems before you get married, everyone tells you its work. They forget to add the word "hard", though.

So I will.

Marriage......is hard work.

It is what it is.

Our marriage is not pretty right now. I feel no one is reading this blog anyway, so what do I care that I'm saying it out loud. This blog is about the road to our child. Or maybe just my child?

I hope not.

I love my husband.

I want us to work.

Is this just a "rough patch"? I didn't that was supposed to happen until the "7 year itch", or after 12 or more years of marriage. Not at 3 1/2 years.

Anyway, it pains me to say, that we canceled our home study. We thought it best to put it on hold while we focus on our marriage. We realized how solid we are going to have to be as a team to tackle the issues ahead with foster care/adoption.

This sucks.

The yearn,need,desire to have a child does not go away and decide to come back after marriage counseling and therapy.

This. Sucks.

November is.........

National Adoption Month!

http://www.childwelfare.gov/adoption/nam/

Progress.....ish.

We got a call from our cw today. Of course, I didn't get to the phone fast enough and missed it. She was calling to set up our homestudy! Snap! And when I called her back she was away and I left her a voicemail.

I hate phone tag. Working with the state should be a blast.

Anyway, its time for us to start preparing for the homestudy. From what I hear, its not a lady with a white glove inspecting the tops of the bookshelves, or searching through all of your dressers and cabinets.

I think what the cw will do is make sure your house is safe and 'kid'proof. That includes having a fire extinguisher, socket covers, cabinet door latches,first aid kit, fire escape route and maybe even a fire escape ladder thingy (that's the technical term).

On a deeper level, she will probably talk to the kids and get their feelings about fost/adoption. Of course they will talk to L and I about our relationship, parenthood, etc.

Beyond that, I don't know.

So yeah, I'm NERVOUS!